This guy is like a devil and an angel. I hate this guy as he is at ugly but he did something to make me realize that there is a future a head of me . This guy is my second eldest brother Jonathan Loo , I fought with him since I was like 5 year old , he had never let me win before that is because I always lose . We both cannot settle down , every time he walk pass me he will say something rude to me , that is what make’s me hate him . His is like a teenage that always get shot on the face or the head because his pimple on his face burst any time it wants , that makes him to become like a animal a hunter is try to hunt for .
Why is he my hero , as we fight we get punish by our father , my brother and I always stay in our bed room , while we stay in the room , my brother is like some minister always talking about things about me which I always think that is boring but all this words manage to touch me and make me feel with more confidence . I was then fuming with rage and going to punch him in the face while he was telling me all those thing . I was thinking why he always say this thing . Is he trying make me more angry or what , then he say he is trying to help me ，I do not really care what he say and took it as rubbish .
Last year 2007 , I was crying because my eldest brother snatch my turn from playing the computer , after a few minutes my father could not stand it and scold all of us and ban all of us from touching the computer and we all stayed in our bedroom , my eldest brother did not wanted to talk to me so left the room and so me and my second eldest brother was in the room , my second eldest brother was talking like a minister again , I was then listening and found all his words made me felt more different then before , what he said change me not to cry like a baby and stand up to be more like a boy and men , after those incident , I had changed to be more brave after all .
But something did not change , which is my second brother acting like not knowing me , he even called me a construction worker , I felt being hurt badly but I know he did not really mean it . But I just act nothing is talking to me . I just really want him to know I hate him on the outside and love him on the inside . But I guess we are still brother after all , as long as we hang out together I feel happy . Of cause there are other people who touched me but he is the one who did it first . I just want him to know I love you Jonathan Loo . bangla